Hi! I hope that everyone has had a great 2015 and is ready for 2016!
In 2015 I definitely struggled. Previously, I had taken two semesters off from school to work and returned spring of 2015, going back to school after taking time off was very difficult! It was definitely hard to go back after a year off; getting back into the rhythm of school and having to deal with homework! It was also hard going from working full time to needing to say no to extra hours and strictly work part time. I have learned that I can not work full time while being in school full time. One of the two gets less of my attention and it’s usually my grades that suffer. You know what though? It’s finally taken me this long, but I am okay with that! I’d rather be broke getting A’s than having money and getting C’s.
Something that I learned in 2015 is that it’s okay to struggle; struggling only makes you stronger.
Now, I know that nothing significant happened to me in 2015, what I will take from this past year is that I am a much stronger person. I am stronger in a sense where I can finally say no to people. I can say no to someone begging me to pick up their shift because my needs come first. If I have class the next day or homework to do I will say no. Another thing is that I got rid of the toxic people in my life. People who have shown no interest in my life but only when it was convenient for them; see ya! I don’t have time wondering what I did wrong or why they only text me to hang out when it’s convenient for them, all that it did for me was make me more of a hateful person. Having these relationships were just hurting me instead of making me happy. I am always putting others happiness before my own and it’s okay to put yourself first for once.
I am very nervous for 2016! I am going into my senior year of college and honestly I don’t know what I am going to do afterward! Do I go to grad school? Do I work? Do I find a job that will pay for grad school? What do I study in grad school? So many questions, not enough time and I don’t even know!
I do know that I want to go to grad school, I just don’t think I can afford to go; with FPU being so expensive and having one too many loans… I am stuck paying the loans and not being able to save for school! OHHH, and my boyfriend and I talk about buying a house and talking about future plans. More things to be stressed about! I just have to breathe and take it one step at a time, but I can’t lie and say that all of these questions that need to be answered aren’t stressing me out.
But for now, I am just going to enjoy my last day of 2015, not stressing about the future -just yet- and have fun with my loved ones. I hope that everyone has an awesome NYE and stays safe! 🙂