HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Here we are again a new year and a new me…. am I right? Nahh, that’s too cliche especially if you have been following my blog for a while now; you know my feelings towards new year resolutions. However, I am here to reflect on 2017 and hopefully give you some inspiration in the process.
A goal of mine and which has been since my last relationship ended is to do the things that I want. I have always done what would make others happy; putting myself on the back burner. So, I am going to do what makes me happy and what I want to do.
I AM GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN
This year has been one hell of a ride. I thought it was going to be MY year; graduated college, bought a house with someone I thought that I would spend the rest of my life with. Now everything has changed — I talk a little more about it in my last post: Losing Your Best Friend.
Since September my whole world has been flipped upside down; I didn’t know what to do or where I was going. I was just a lost girl. My best friend took me in under her wing; which I am forever thankful for. You always need friends in your corner and she’s always been in mine. I would have been a lost puppy if she never took me in. Now, I feel as though I need to “leave the nest” so to speak. It’s time for me to do it by myself. Where as I love all of my friends it’s time for me to lean on myself and to be more independent.
Reflecting back on 2017 it’s given me strength. I know, I know, very cliche. Everything happens for a reason and with that being said I have had a few opportunities to do things that involve traveling all of which have been a learning experience. I have learned so much about myself and how strong I truly am. So twenty seventeen you can suck it!
BUYING A HOUSE: What have I learned from buying a house.. well one thing is for sure – do not buy a house with anyone until there is a ring on your finger. This because then you actually know that this person wants to be with you forever. All of the time and money that I spent on the new house are all down the drain. However, the point of this isn’t to talk about the negative parts. It’s to talk about how I have taken a negative situation and turned it into a positive. Something positive that has come out of this is that when I am ready to purchase a house I will know what I am getting myself into since I have already done it.
GRADUATION: In 2017 this would have to be the most positive thing that has happened to me. I won’t talk too much about it because I already have a post that I have written out, here’s the link if you want to read about it: I AM DONE WITH THE B.S.
NEW JOB: I originally applied to this job because it was close to my new home; about 3 minutes to be exact and I also wanted to teach pre-k. It’s been a huge learning experience in and around itself. But when I started working here, I tried really hard not to resent myself for getting this position because I was thinking of the future. As the months have passed I have began to love it, watching children learn how to spell/write their names and being happy about it is what makes teaching children inspirational. I feel that I am shaping the future by teaching these children.
NEWBURYPORT MA: Prior to this fun little trip – I cut my hair. Oh yes, the typical I am sad let’s chop all my hair off after a break up. It was a good 5 or so inches I cut and what comes with a hair style change is a photo shoot to show off my fun and sassy do.
So my best friend and I took a trip to Newburyport MA to see the sunflower fields. Unfortunately, we had gone during the end of the season so there wasn’t much to see. Now, during this period in time I was looking for someone to replace Adam, clearly not in the right head space at all. However, being with Moryah and exploring a new town was enough to give me motivation to move forward. We went to the sunflower fields and even though they were dead it gave me inspiration to grow. Even though the flowers were dying I knew that by next year they will grow into beautiful sunflowers again. Just like me, this was when I realized that I needed to give myself time to grow. We made a vlog from this trip Sunflower Fields With My New Bae if you want to see it!
WASHINGTON AUTO TRAIL: This was the first time ever driving up Mount Washington and I have lived in NH my whole life. During this trip I learned how to be alone. Sure, I felt lonely during the trip since I had gone with friends and their significant others but it was what I needed to grow independently. I knew that when my first relationship ended I was afraid to be alone and I wanted to fill that emptiness as soon as it ended without actually finding myself. During this break up, I told myself that I’d find me again before starting another relationship. This gave me the insight that I needed to be happy being alone. We vlogged this trip also Being Leaf Peepers; Fall 2017
PHILADELPHIA PA: Some of the roommates and I went to PA for a weekend and it was so much fun. This was enough to give me the urge to want to travel more even if it’s just in the US. I was able to explore the city with my best friends and I have never laughed so much since the break up. Moryah and her boyfriend are into board games which was the reason why we went to Philly. We went to a board game convention and to be completely honest I was skeptical. I honestly didn’t think I would have fun and weirdly enough I had a blast; I even played a couple games while I was there! Going to Philly has shown me to be more open minded to the different things around me. Here’s the video for PA.
Photo credit: Joe
CONNOR: Then there is Connor, my boyfriend; it’s so weird to say that! However, people come into your life at the perfect time. Like I mentioned above I stopped trying to find someone to fill the emptiness and just embraced being alone. I don’t believe in love at first sight, however, since we met I knew it was different and I could see some serious sparks. Call it cliche but when we met it was like fate. I knew that I wanted to be with him even though I was 100% scared. If I didn’t take a chance, I could be missing out on someone perfect. I took a chance and with that being said I have a whole new view on love.
To finally close the chapter of 2017 – I want you to know that everything happens for a reason. I know I have been very cliche with this blog post but it’s true. If I never had gotten my heart broken I wouldn’t have been able to see a new side of myself or of love. Had I just been living my day to day life I wouldn’t have these experiences from the different trips I have taken these past few months. Probably would have not have realized how much happier I am today and how much I have learned about myself in such a short period of time. I also learned that where I was prior to this I was never truly happy. Thinking back to 2017 I was blind and well love does that to you, however, I know now that I can see again and it feels great.
WHAT I WANT YOU TO TAKE AWAY FROM THIS:
1. HAVE AN OPEN MIND!
It’s hard to have an opened mind when you’re stuck in the same routine. Step out of your comfort zone and try something new or something that you wouldn’t think you would enjoy. Hey, you might just actually like it!
2. PUT YOURSELF FIRST!
Always think about yourself first – I know it might be hard especially in my case because I am always putting others first. However, you need to make sure that you’re happy too. If you’re constantly worrying about others you lose out on living your happy life.
3. IF YOU FALL GET BACK UP!
One thing that I have learned from 2017 is that even if I fall down I need to pick myself back up. Just because something bad has happened to you doesn’t mean you should dwell on the negative factors; be sad, depressed, unhappy, go through the stages you need to..but you need to take that as it is and better your life. You can not sit there and let people feel bad for you. Show them and most importantly show yourself that you can pick yourself back up.
4. TAKE EVERY OPPORTUNITY!
If you don’t take an opportunity for whatever reason – you’ll regret it. Don’t let the fear of something force you to not take an opportunity. I can say that I have learned this through out my years and I am onto a new lifestyle – being more adventurous. I wouldn’t do things because I was too afraid and then afterwards I would regret not doing it.